I found
that love
was hard
too hard
for me
so I
gave up
to pursue
my loneliness
that I
was meant
to bear
and turned
to drugs
and turned
to booze
and turned
myself into
the man
I will
die as
may 14, 2013; 7:14pm
I want
to live
inside you
to be
safe all
the time
to be
a part
of you
I want
your feelings
I want
your thoughts
I want
to be
as beautiful
as you
I want
my pussy
rubbed raw
to cum
the way
you do
and I
know that
god wants
that too
may 9, 2013; 8:55pm
we build
the prisons
in which
we hide
and think
that escape
is impossible
even though
they do
not exist
because everyone
tells us
that they
are real
may 7, 2013; 7:50pm
the hallway
was black
and cold
as hell
I could
feel the ghosts
along the walls
they reached
for me
brushing against
my skin
allowing me
to see
the world
as death
I continued
only because
I knew you
were down there
I knew you
needed me
may 1, 2013; 11:15pm
the way
you look
in nothing
at all
no cloth
can cover
that heaven
no style
could do
it justice
being naked
is the
quickest way
to find
the soul
april 25, 2013; 6:39pm
her heart
was in
the right place
her hand
was down
my pants
but her head
was off
with him
and I knew
we would
never do
this again
april 24, 2013; 8:05pm
you’ll strip
for them
but not
for me
I feel
like there
was a
door somewhere
and you
closed it
can we
stay afloat
while we
are searching
for ourselves
april 17, 2013; 10:34am
I think
your scars
are beautiful
they show
where you
have been
they hold
the pain
that made
this person
I imagine
the blood
running down
how alive
you must
have felt
april 16, 2013; 8:31pm
trees in bloom
like fireworks
in july
the season
is bringing
change
making me
feel uncomfortable
I watch
the runners
pass my porch
I sit
smoking
wondering
why they
work so hard
at life
and why I
have so much
disrespect
for others
april 16, 2013; 6:30pm
my myth
is america
land of
the free
I hope
to find
the truth
out there
the roads
seem infinite
but each
with stories
more beautiful
and tragic
than cinema
and here
to witness
and feel
to search
for truth
in life
one must
know life
april 11, 2013; 8:47pm
your words
are meant
to hurt
I could
tell from
meeting you
we would
probably never
be friends
but you
should know
that I
don’t give
a fuck
about you
or any
of this
so joke
and laugh
and waste
your time
but know
I will
never care
april 11, 2013; 7:00pm
we fuck
and fight
and do
little else
I look
at you
and see
a memory
no new
emotions felt
just nostalgia
from a
beautiful ghost
april 10, 2013; 8:55pm
one ice cube
in a glass
full of water
floating alone
melting slowly
influencing the world
around it
only slightly
until we find
no trace that
it ever existed
life
